where would we be if we couldn't dream?, tl;dr

tl;dr

sometimes shaina texts me things like

“1300 for a 2bdrm in bay ridge brooklyn hahahah”
“studio for 750 in queens”
“1075 2 bed bronx lol”

and it’s just like. that sounds so wonderful. it sounds so expensive and i would hate the cold weather and i would probably be scared shitless anytime i had to walk anywhere by myself. but then nyc was so alive and people were always doing things and you would walk everywhere. you didnt have to get in your car and drive 25 minutes to get to things that aren’t chain. and like i hate nyc, but i think i hate everywhere.

then she starts texting me about how we should take photography classes and start our own photography business and we already named it and i have a logo designed in my head and we know what our ~signature shot~ would be and a tagline. but we need like a portfolio and people who actually want to pay us (by us, i mean shaina, because i would end up doing some editting so she doesnt sephia the shit out of everything lololol jk jk)

anyways. the point of this is that i want to take photography classes and im ready for the next thing life has to offer (except i have this pesky lease) unless life is trying to finally offer me an awesome disney job and then SYKKEEE ALL ABOUT ORLANDO AGAIN :D :D :D

what i’d REALLY LIKE is to meet a boy and fall in love and have him be like YOU KNOW WHAT, IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO LIVE IN NAGS HEAD, NC. and i’d be like NO WAY. ME TOO. and then we’d move there and live in a cute beach cottage and i’d have a cute vacation planning business. and corbin would get puppy training and be a good dog. and id have a side photography business, but really only for fun. and my husband would have some cool job, maybe own a cute hotel, but he’d play guitar and sing in his freetime. and my future husband and i would take corbin to the beach and we’d sit and drink PBRs on a beach towel while the sun set. and on our days off, we’d take mini trips everywhere. and some nights he’d go to an open mic night, but it’s usually the off season so there are only a few people there but it’s still adorable and we’d be considered locals and during the in season we’d stay away from the beach and vacation to disney world instead and it would be so perfect. and he’d think it’s adorable that im obsessed with glee and harry potter and shit and i’d think it’s adorable that he plays video games every night and yells at the 12yr olds he’s playing against.

so. idk where or why this happened but im going to go cry and sleep and then drive back to florida tomorrow morning lol BYE.